random stream of thought...

[this is how I feel...head in a tail spin]
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1] I really wishing that I was back on vacation with time to simply chill. But I am also glad to be home.

2] Putting Christmas decorations up is way more fun than taking them down. However, today I took the storage boxes out to the garage so I'm finally done.

3] I am so disenchanted by the way that people are able to treat each other. It's disheartening some times to know that people can treat others any way other than the way they would choose to be treated themselves. It has seems unavoidable the past week or so and makes me  want to crawl into a cave and not come out for a while.

4] On the flip side, I am so blessed to have the people in my life that I have chosen to keep close and have given me unconditional support and encouragement. My parents and my sister have been so amazing and we've learned so much. My husband; I can't say enough about him so I'll leave it at this...I'm one lucky girl. My close girlfriends have been there just how they need to be just when I need them and haven't put any pressure on me to give more than I can these days. (Surprisingly, some of my best support has come from you; new blog friends!) When you go through hard things it's not always easier to keep your head up and go about your normal relationships. Relationships take a lot of work and a lot of time and effort. I've learned that there are times when it's not easy to just pick up the phone and chat away. My best friends have given me the time and the freedom to grieve how I need to and are there every step of the way. I am forever grateful for them. (YOU know who you are!)

5] How do I end up in front of the tv watching the Bachelor every season? Every. single. season. I say to myself that I'm not watching it anymore. Yet again, it pops up on the DVR and I'm at it again! Man.

6] I really need to get a hair cut and have been saying that for too long now. Like seriously, it's time. I don't think your hair should ever reach your butt and mine is too close.

7] I told my husband, I really need a few more of me. One to sit and grieve, be sad when I need, be mad when I need. One to go about life enjoying every bit and piece that I can. One to get my house back in order, recovered from being out of town, and from the holidays. One to go to work and one to complete my Pilates hours. (I have back-to-back weekend lectures this weekend and next and so much work to follow...phew.) Another to be able to reconnect with all my friends that I have had to sit wondering, "What is going on with her?" (LOTS is the answer by the way.)

Ok, enough of that! I'm resolved to take better care of myself and my relationships. I am resolved to get up and go when I need to and to set up the right time to get the things done that I must. I am resolved to take the time to sit down, shut off, rest, rejuvenate, rejoice in the life I've been given. I am resolved to not be so hard on myself.