mother's day

Yesterday, as I celebrated my first Mother's Day my thoughts went back to last year. The day I found out this little was growing rapidly in my belly. I can't believe an entire year has past and he is here to celebrate this year with me. My little man made me a mommy back in January and he has already taught me so much in such a little time. 

He has taught me to be more humble, less reactive, and more soft than I was before. He has helped me learn how to ask for help (I still haven't come close to mastering this one) and that it is okay to not be able to do it all on my own. He has shown me that I am even stronger than I already thought I was. He has allowed me to be reflect on what is truly important, what is loving and true. Through so many smiles and laughs he has transformed my identity. I am a mommy now, and will now forever be. And for that, I am thankful of him. It is the best because he is the best. 

41 weeks and 2 days of progress...

At the beginning of my pregnancy I knew that I wanted to do something creative to document my ever growing bump. I got the idea to make a stop motion video that showed the progress of my little babe. Next up I had to choose a location, an outfit, and a photographer. All these things were complicated. The location needed to be somewhere that I could get to easily, conveniently, and would look the same for 40 weeks. The outfit needed to be one that fit (properly) for 40 weeks. The photographer needed to be someone that would be willing and able to help me execute my vision during and after the 40 weeks. The video below is the result of that. It wasn't easy to always get out there at the right time of day and when all necessary parties were willing and able but...we did it! AND...I'm ecstatic that we did. My husband and I love the final cut and I know my little man will one day too.

 

Location: my parent's backyard. Outfit: dress from Anthropologie. Photographer/Editor: my amazing sister

welcoming...

Obviously I have been MIA for a bit and now you know why. Although you probably already guessed. My little man bound into this world a week and two days past his due date. What then felt like forever waiting now feels like forever ago.  Isn't it funny how that happens...in the waiting, the expecting, the desiring, the time passes so slow. And yet, once the time finally comes you don't remember the torture of the waiting. Hopefully that can be some encouragement for those of you in the waiting zone...waiting for the right person to share life with, waiting for a job that fulfills your purpose, even waiting for a little babe of your own. The time will come. Until then, may you be able to slow down and enjoy each little moment along your journey. As for me, I am soaking in each little waking moment with my little man. 

xo  

baby boy in my belly

Although I have been well documenting my belly, I haven't posted about it here. However, since today is ONE MONTH from my due date I thought I'd share a bit. As you can see, the belleh is a growing and my little man is getting ready to make his appearance and let us love on him. I am thoroughly excited to meet him and surprisingly unworried about his birth and labor process. I am highly aware that my life is about to change immensely (it some ways it has so much already) and though I don't know that I feel completely ready, or prepared, for that, I am happy to make that adjustment and learn how to be his best mommy possible. 

I love you already and I'll love you forever little one!

xo, Mommy

i'm back!

[artwork created by and for by way of ney]

Wow! It has been a while since my fingers have happily found themselves to this place. Obviously, I took the summer (and then some) off from blogging and that deserves some explanation. On Mother's Day I found out that I was expecting and that a little one would be joining my world and changing it, in a welcomed way, forever. I felt pretty physically terrible really early on and had little ability to do much besides keep myself fed, clothed, and alive. (Sounds dramatic but some of you have been there.) Partially into the second trimester I began to feel much more functional and I am finally feeling fully like myself these days. I am now 25 weeks along and, at this point, truly loving being pregnant. I feel so blessed that my baby BOY (oh my goodness!) is right at home in my belly, growing like crazy, and I am thrilled that I will get to be his mommy. 

DUM SPIRO SPERO is latin for "While I breathe, I hope" and it's been somewhat of a motto for me the last few months. Even during the complicated transitions of life I find that it can still be very simple at the core. Over the last few months, finding a place of calm in the crazy has felt as simple as that; breath means life and living means hoping. So in the midst of any worries, unanswered questions, concerns, and feelings of being overwhelmed that you (and I) have, let's remember to breathe, and breathe deep.

Thanks for being patient with me while I took some time away. I'm glad to be back!

xo